trying to consolidate that which fills my thoughts, journals, videos, voice recordings, notes, blogs, emails, rambles, daydreams, dreams, nightmares, impulses, and imagination:

i believe in the worship of Other (External) and time, through its manifestation as computational patterns and consciousness. my current practice is to seek intimacy with my Screen/Horizon (phenomenality) and ritualize through words + meta-cognition. i am of metamodernist thought, having witnessed oscillation, pattern, and fractals. gratitude fills the spaces between my tired muscles and neurons. i see my Self as an experiment with an n of 1, but comprised of longitudinal evolutionary data.

(all said in transience + humility, with the naïvety of the unconsenting born, but the conviction of an eldest daughter tricked.)

(this page is in Δ)

11.16.2024 12:16 AM
what if my internal dialogue is an open-source script? cryptic in its pattern and revelation, present in its matter.

11.17.2024 2:06 PM
relating to odysseus and his desire to hear the sirens. searching for Circe's advice on how to tie myself to a mast and listen.